I have been taking a hiatus from Facebook, and who knows, maybe it will be a permanent change. Every now and then I get the itch to find out what's happening in the lives of my Facebook friends, so I login and am quickly reminded why it was time for me to step away. Aside from the fact I spend way too much time staring at the perfectly portrayed lives of my FB friends, I have become more and more irritated by the internet world. My opinions on life have taken deep roots in my being, and at the ripe age of 27 I am old, cantankerous and easily annoyed. It's not like I am proud of this fact, but I reached a point I could no longer login without rolling my eyes from some ridiculous post or status. I got in an argument on one of my friend's statuses, she erased the thread, and I said, "Self, it's time to quit wasting time with your panties in a wad over other people's opinions."
I am by no means perfect and my opinions are not the only ones exist- although, I do think I am always right ;)- but it was just time to throw in the towel. I know I am not the only one feeling the pressure and annoyance from the FB world. There are now the options to block statuses and pick and choose what you see from their profiles. Ridiculous. It's like you don't want to offend this so called friend, so you feel better about yourself by staying friends with them and blocking their info. I was doing this by the masses, and realized it was so dumb to be friends with a boatload of people I never talk to and their pictures and opinionated arrogant statuses made me burn with anger. Clearly, I was not in a healthy state of mind. The absolute worst part was when my own real life friends posted things that made irritated me. The guilt of blocking my actual friends...dun, dun, dun... was terrible.
I used to enjoy social media, but no mas. I can longer deal with political rants trying to sway the other side of how bad they are and how right you are. Nope, can't take it. I am done with postings about abortion, gay marriage, and gun control. I have strong convictions about all of these issues, but people, do you really think we don't know your opinions already? The 10 previous statuses made that clear, and sorry but the other side will not be swayed by your mass postings. I can longer roll my eyes at one more status about your awesome workout, your fabulous diet or supplements, or your wonderful lifestyle that is so much better than everyone elses'. I think my eyes are permanently crossed from all the eye rolling. I also cannot bite my tongue at one more ridiculous posts from "google scholars" on medical treatments, causes of disease, the treatments doctors are hiding because we are controlled by big pharma, etc. I am done with the doctor bashing, folks. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels their profession is constantly under attack by false claims and misrepresentation on social media. I found myself exhausted and frustrated every time I clicked through your perfect pictures that you so carefully chose to show how sweet and wonderful your life is. Dude, we know the truth...
The truth is life is messy. My house is covered in dog fur 24/7. My ceilings have a bit of wall paint splattered around the corners in each room, because I am too lazy to touch it up. My clothes don't quite fit like they did 2.5 years ago when I started medical school, and I often don't have the energy or motivation to go the gym at 8 at night after working all day to get my sexy body back. I try to eat healthy, but dang it I love grains, dairy, and all things dessert (Sue me). I'm often so stressed with school and managing a house and attempting to be a good wife, that I'm a bit snippy with my husband often on a daily basis (Thank goodness the man still loves me). I freely admit here and now that I am 27 and I've never voted. I am often ashamed of it, but my gosh, politics overwhelm me and I hate the political fighting and FB temper tantrums people throw. Maybe next election...
I'm going to be a doctor because I have always dreamed of working with children and GOD called me to this awesome profession. I love helping people, challenges, studying, counseling people, and medicine provided the perfect outlet. Medicine isn't perfect and the healthcare system isn't perfect, but by golly I'm excited to a doctor.
I feel like a weight has been lifted since I stepped away from the FB world, and I have pursued each day much happier than I did a few weeks ago. I no longer feel bad about being me. As women we are always comparing ourselves to one another, and I think FB is a dangerous place to live because it feeds this unhealthy obsession. Life is about how God convicts you to live, but it is not your job to pressure someone to live out your convictions. This has been a huge realization for me as well. Women, no matter if you are working or staying home / sending your kids to public school or homeschooling/ birthing at home or in the hospital /cloth diapering or store diapers /making every meal healthy or eating out a few times a week/ republican or democrat/ run 5 miles a day or only get exercise chasing your kids around/ the list could go on... be who GOD called YOU to be. Pray to God to convict you of the areas you need to work on and live like He leads you to and gain guidance from His word. This may be very different for each women, and that is the beauty of it all. I'm continuing to pray for conviction in my own life and patience to love each person for their unique attributes God has blessed them with.
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